I Am Afraid to Become A Mother, a Parent

 I Am Afraid to Become A Mother, a Parent

I am afraid to become a mother. First off, I still have dreams to reach, goals to achieve, and things to prove. ‎

‎I am afraid to become a mother. Secondly, I saw my parents thrive; witnessed the blood and tears to provide, for us to have a better life. ‎ ‎

I am afraid to become a mother. ‎Third, I am young and dumb but learned that life is not about the butterflies in our stomach but food on our table. ‎

‎I am afraid to become a mother. ‎Not because I don't imagine myself as one but because I might not be the best one. That what if I couldn't give the nurture of a mother. ‎

‎I am afraid to become a mother, ‎Not because I don't want to be one some day, but because I'm afraid I can't provide. I am badly afraid that I might be one of my child's reasons to cry at night. ‎

‎I know love conquers all, but a desperate love won't create a less harsh life; won't give lighter problems to carry; won't present a clearer path to go through. ‎ ‎

I hope everyone else is afraid to become a mother. I hope they consider what the life of the child will be when they grow up. I hope they consider if they can provide a roof, enough food, and needs.

I hope everyone else is afraid to become a mother. I hope they consider if the child won't have problems with tuition. I hope they consider first if they are ready to become one and raise the child with less pressure and trauma. ‎ ‎

I hope everyone else is afraid to become a mother. I hope they won't pass to the child their supposed responsibilities. I just hope we learn that at an early age.

(June 5, 2025)